This is a very vulnerable video for me to share. In this video, I begin talking about anger, betrayal and passion. I talk about how anger makes me feel big and powerful, but also about how beneath my anger is often sadness and fear. For me, anger is usually a sign that I need to acknowledge and feel my feelings, set boundaries and learn the lesson the experience is trying to teach me.
At the time of recording this video, I had started dating someone and we had just broken up. The break up had triggered my abandonment wound. Coupled with my burnout from moving, working and loneliness I was feeling during the pandemic, I got quite emotional during the recording and immediately felt shame at losing control of emotions.
I put this video on private for many months. I didn't think it was appropriate for a professional Counsellor to be seen in such an emotionally vulnerable state. However, I ultimately have decided to share my experience because I think it’s useful and possibly even educational to witness someone managing their raw emotions in the moment, while encouraging and committing to loving myself.
Choosing not to post, feels like I am rejecting myself, so I have decided to share. How people perceive me is none of my business. I know my intention in sharing is so that people will know they are not alone in their struggles and that there is hope in recovery.
I hope this video of me talking about processing anger and sadness resonates with you. I am very grateful for everyone that engages and encourages me in sharing my education & experience by commenting, liking & subscribing to my YouTube channel. Your encouragement means a lot to me. I am very grateful for your support! Frances Stone, CCAC #addiction #recovery #support